wont we forget?

all our lives once were finished?
off again.
here we lie in the fortress of countless worries.
our self control over the endless stories
i cant see enough....
i cant see enough of her.

lets lie against the fields of stars
in this world against it all.
forever let us  feel the rush of wind against our skin.
oh what were in is the fall.

are you falling against me ?

in our mindless words we have left.
i wanted to leave you with these.
how come you never met me ?
is it becuase im empty?

so beatiful when your gone.

this world turns over.
how can we miss our own ?

when were selfless?
how am i suppose to breathe without this?
 

falling is lifes catastrophe
wanting the world to know
what this is .
what, do you need me for ?
takeing all thats over again.

why dont we fall into the future.
causing outselfs to drown in this
and its all supose to be the wonder
and how can we wonder when
everythings down and out?

lets save ourselfs for the outbreak
of humanity
everything goes under.

lets save the past for last .
until our lungs go dry with fear.

your all i have left and well save the selfs of ours.
wont we wonder.
what were supose to be?

The rain fell down as it burned through our souls

she screamed out his name in the withering cold

something was missing.

she knew in her heart that he would be near.

punshied by the pain and frozen with the fear

we all have this life to live

the reality as we knew it was right in their hands

hopeing it would come to life as we give

we give it away as the fire tore us open

screaming for revenge

seeking the lifeless

as we give to our own

hopeing one day it will all end in the dusk

of the nightless ashes that have fallen upon us.

odd thing about this whole thing when i did mushrooms i knew id never be the same again, basicaily 6 mouths later i sort of went back to my old self. then when i did e (exatacy) last week i was concentrating so hard not to have a bad trip again that it totaly changed my whole prespective of life. while i was on it i kept getting this feeling like i got when i was on mushrooms so basicaily i told my friend that we had to get out of the restaruant we were in so we left, and i was like not really talking to her cuase i was thinking that i didnt want to have a bad trip and i was trying to keep myself from having one and she was basicaily rambeling on about a bunch of things and i wasnt really talking and she got all mad cuase i wasnt talking to her lol. but then i started thinking i noticed things about her that i didnt notice before, and people like in general. like what i noticed while she was on her phone she seemed really desperate for...

basicialy my whole life i have never felt as if anybody has actulay ever cared about me.

even my family i feel as if my sister and i are some kind of joke.

friends at school who were supose to be my friends my whole life my whole fucking life has always backstabbed me and used me and treated me like ****.

so when you go though your life when you feel as if you cant trust anyone and when someone comes along and actualy tells you that they love you and that they show with their actions that they will be there for you and they care about you then clearly that you will fall for them becuase this is new to you...

i met a boy, hes my best friend thats a guy.

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1. Too Little Too Late - Raul Rincon Mix

2. Wake up - Daft Punk

3. Life in Technicolor - Cold Play

4.  September '99 [Phats & Small Club Remix] - Earth, Wind & Fire

5. Calabria- Enur

6. Gimmie More - Paul Oakenfold Remix

7. Give it to me - Paul Oakenfold Remix

8. high life- Daft Punk

9. hypnotise- Bjork & Paul Oakenfold

10. Southern Sun - Dj Teisto

11. Express Youreslf- NWA

12. Umma do me - Rocko

13. Body on me- Ashanti ft. Nelly Akon

14. Polariod - Shwayze

15. Dream Catch me- Newton Faulkner

16. Bittersweet Symphony - Oasis

well i was really thinking to myself after  i responded to a form, what the hell is reality?

its just a made up point of view.

i think we shoudl be learning from the animals moreless.

our way of doing things as humans clearly is the wrong way beucase we arent going anywhere with our actions or how we do things.

its kinda hard to keep thinking everything happends for a reason, well it does dont get me wrong but its annyoing how it seems as if the human race is standing still as if hopeing mother nature will help our hurt.

we arent doing anything aobut how much we consume, how much we kill, what we kill, who we kill, who we hurt, who we love, who we help, if we even love ourselves or others... its pathetic.

im appauled to even call myself a human at this point of what we are doing to the world.

them scientists better get crackin cuase its all fadeing away so fast.

in the walls crawling into the night

screams wisper into your mind

as you embrace the excape

you still wonder what its like

to feel whats real

take the fate thats empty handed

as your reflection fades away

doubting your hurt clears your mind in an instant

fakeing the world is clear is persistant

takeing all the given as your feelings surpress you

mind raceing to your initial thinking

confused and clueless

your words float away

standing in the darkeness as it changes to light

grabbing hold of your own instinct

holding your heart in the palm of your hand

seaking out the truth that you cant stand

running though your own thoughts

how can you take this irony

looking inside its all the same

its all clear as pavement.

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alright here is a poem i wrote. writing poems helps me vent out my anger so read and comment if you want.

leaving me in the darkness

for our worlds to take flight

as i grap onto our last words

your voice lingers in my mind

holding me in the same place for eternety

as my light shines for you

my heart stops as my mind shatters

your the only thing that really mattered

it takes two for the game

as you played my peice

i missed the past

as your future is for defeat.

no longer in sight

as we come apart

im yours for the taken

as ive said before

and never again,

ill love you no matter what

until the end.

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