Thus far, I still havent found it. The confidence I seemed to obtain, I am now lacking. The morals I'd once clung to so dearly have been seethed as I look back in regret. It's good to know the things that, few and far between, have ever ment anything to me, I have walked all over like my kitchen floor.  Not long ago, I was a strong believer of abstinence, pro-life and a plethora of other morals and aspects. Whereas today, I'm writing to youas a cry for help and a last resort for an alternative to honeing in on the fact that I'm restlessly waiting for the results of a store-baught pregnancy test and that, if it reads posative, I am contemplating weatther or not I would ever be forgiven for getting an abortion (which is, in my opinion, MURDER). Now, all I am left with is a vacant glass of self respect. Obviously, nothing thus far has utterlyI sparked my intrest (not that i even understand...