In essence, I am a changed person. I have experienced something I consider traumatic others would agree. The importance of my life and my future depends on my choices. The choice to share a bottle of E&J whiskey with two guys Saturday night was a wake up call. It stopped being fun when I forgot periods of time, when I passed out and then woke up on the bathroom floor, when I laid in my own vomit or when I scared my sister to the point of no return. By then anyone present had seen a side of me that was both embarrassing and haunting. I'm scraed of the person I've become over the last couple of years. Is there ever a rewind button where I can just erase and possibly forget about this? Or will this random Saturday night along with my family's history of alcoholism be with me forever?

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