Maybe you should talk to a doctor about getting a medicine for depression. From the sounds of things, you are doing all of this because of the stress and events going on in your life. So here's some advice. Talk to a doctor about getting medicine for depression. And also, think of it this way. If people left you, they were never your friend. Just be strong, make something of yourself, and make those people regret treating you like that. Best wishes.

Good lord, since you were 9? No offence i thought i had problems! lol im not judgeing dont worry. I think that since you started at a younge age you began to think that drugs would always solve your problems. I agree with Carbaby124. I think you should talk to a phyciatrist. also get some rahab it would help a lot. Also you should be around more postive things in your life so you wouldnt be so stressed out and turn to drugs all the time. take up a hobby that you like to replace drugs even, maybe take up a pottery class or painting or horseback rideing, the options are endless. You should find something your passionate about and stick to it, make some goals for yourself so you have something to look forward to each day. i think you should start to build up some self confidence and start to love yourself. becuase when you love yourself you dont want to harm yourself in any way like that. hope i helped. if you need anyone to talk to im always here!

I find that many drug users, and abusers use drugs in order to either...cope with an issue, a problem, or to fill an empty hole in their heart. Sure, we also like to get fucked up, lets not lie. But...there are deeper issues.

In my own personal experience as a recovering addict, I find that I am having to learn new coping methods, and dig deep...really deep to figure out the who's why's and what's of myself. For years I identified as a junkie. I was happy being a junkie....I sacrificed every other aspect of myself, my loves, my passions, my beliefs...that were all so important to me, just to be a junkie. So now that my identity as a junkie has been taken from me....where am I? Who am I? I have to wake up and find myself. You have to also.

If you ever need to vent...get in contact with me. I am here for you. Sometimes it helps to speak to a non biased third party.

I used to be that way. I had no parents and was mad at the world. I started using drugs at 13, and it was off and on until about 6 months ago. I know many will say being sober for only 6 months isn't a big deal, well it is for me, because I found something besides drugs that I can lean on when I'm weak, someone who will always be there for me, someone who can take the heavy weight I have on my back and help me get through it and all he asks of me is to believe in him and keep a relationship with him like I would a friend. I'm talking about God. I checked into a rehab that was based on forming a relationship with God. I got in there and at first I never would have guessed God could help with anything, I was a very big nonbeliever, but I must say it works. If you'd like to try it out message me and I'll give you information on the rehab I went to, there are some all over the country and they're free of charge, basically you have nothing to lose. Also, if you'd like I can give speak to you about my testimony and recommend some books for you to read on people who have changed.

there are times in our life that even if we try to put ourselves pieces and pieces together we still tend to fall apart. i guess as humans we are naturally born fragile, vulnerable and prone to bad things. yet we still struggle to find our way out, searching the right path 'coz we know that at that end of the line all we have is our own self. i guess you know what to do, it's just up for you to stand up and clean yourself and just do it, it's not too late. goodluck!