I am 14 years old. It has always been very hard for me to say "no", which led to the loss of my virginity at the age of 12. The second time I had sex, at 13, was with a boyfriend of 9 months, (over 10 times) and it was sexual abuse; police became involved & hate grew beyond everyone.  It has been almost half a year since I got out of that unhealthy relationship, and now, I'm in a fresh one, for almost 2 months now. And STILL, I feel like the only way I can make a boyfriend happy, is to have sex with them. I KNOW that isn't the answer. I just NEED to know how to respect myself, and more importantly, LOVE myself. I want to change my lifestyle and the path I am on.. now. & I am more than ready to do whatever it takes to be a normal 14 year old girl; if it's possible.