...people can counsle me all day long, if they can muster the immense breathe that it would undoubtedly take, regarding the thoughts filled with intense feelings of loneliness that manage to randomly and without warning creep into my mind...

"how can anyone possible know the sensation of unimportance that tingles in the dark corners of some of my thoughts?..." ~i  don't feel like i am all alone in this thing as if it were just an emotion that, for no reason, just overcomes me. i know that i am all alone in this thing as if it were, NO!... i know that i am all alone in this thing because it is a FACT that no one in this world understands me, cares what i hve to say, or even respects me enought to not compulsively lie and continuously hurt me, time & time & time after time.

...As a result, i am so untrusting of practically everyone i ever meet and everyone i have forever known...    in my belief process i have developed some kind of a blocking mechanism which alerts me of the ~more than likely~ evil nature of people... thus, i never trust ANYONE, especially not enough 2 let them get close enough to my heart and feelings where the potential lay to cause me drama, grief, & uncontrollable sadness ... (AFTERALL: BETTER SAFE THAN SORRY!)

~my struggle with what has been labeled "deep depression" is something i don't think is so simply identified, diagnosed, and smacked with generic label (thereby lumping me in with a group of people who are also all carelessly called "bipolar" and "manic-depressed..."~   you see, i don't understand how one can assume i suffer from a chemical-inbalance, talk such harm, when people, in general, are DEFINATELY TO BLAME for causing me too act and feel this wretched way to begin with!!!  ...