In the third episode of Real World XX, Brianna makes the powerful decision to leave a night of partying with the roommates at the club. Below she describes what it was like coming to that decision, and reflects on her on-going battle with addiction.
That night I left the club my mouth had gone numb after kissing a girl who was using cocaine. I was more afraid than anything. I knew that if I had stayed in that environment, that I probably would have made a horrible decision that could have cost me my spot on the show and my dream. My life and self control meant so much more than any drug.
Making a decision like that one is not as easy as it may have looked. In fact, I have struggled with an addiction to crystal meth and cocaine and the struggle is never over.
My advice is to get help. I myself thought that I didn't need it. Since I've been home, certain events have taken place that have made me look into rehabilitation. It’s the last decision that I want to make, but I know it will be beneficial.